Is it raining in here or is it just me?

Hey guys,

Well I think my symptoms have abated. I don't feel really nauseous anymore although I feel a little "off" still. My boobs are ok now and don't seem swollen although the nipples are really tender still. I still have a few mild crampy feelings in my stomach, so I don't know what to make of this.

I am quite emotional though. Last night I walked into a shop and it smelt so good. It smelt like my Mum's shop. She had a beautiful shop in a very affluent suburb of Melbourne. She sold lots of things - gifts, towels, sheets, toys, soaps, pot pouri, candles etc. The place smelt divine. When someone bought something, we wrapped it, with a ribbon, and placed it in a lovely bag, and we included a little card with "Thank you for shopping at (shopname)" and attached to the card was a tiny bag of lavender. Of course, after being there all day, my Mum would come home smelling just as divine as the shop.

Anyway - I was in the shop, absorbing all the aromas and the lady who owned the shop asked me how I was. For some reason I was compelled to tell her that I was just wallowing in memories and I told her it reminded me of my Mum's shop that she had many years ago. She asked "What is your Mum doing now?" and I said "oh,.. um ... my Mum passed away 7 years ago" as a tear silently rolled down my face and a lump hit my throat.

She kindly put her hand on my arm and said "I understand. I have lost my Mum too. You just stay here as long as you want. You are more than welcome to come here anytime you like". How sweet is that!!!

So today I have the day off work, and I decided to go get some yarn I have been thinking about getting (I know I know! I have so much already!). So I get to Go Lo and find they have discounted it all to $1 - bonus! There were two elderly ladies there and we got to discussing the cool price on these yarns. They kept having trouble reaching the colors on the bottom shelf so I kept lifting them to higher shelves for them. They thought I was lovely and then one said "It is so lovely to see younger people knitting. Did your Mother teach you to knit?" and I tried to answer calmly but the tears fell anyway. I don't think they saw. I just answered her question and quietly moved off, to dry my eyes in another aisle.

I will be fine - it is just one of these days I think.

I also found out that a friend of mine who is going through some big problems at the moment got hit with another issue today. They already have financial issues which is putting quite a strain on their marriage, and they have been trying for baby number 2 for 5 years now, without success. She went to the doctors today to discover that the illness she has been suffering is from her VP shunt malfunctioning and she will most likely have to have it removed. Odds of surviving the Op are something like 50% and understandably she is scared. Scared for herself, her husband and her beautiful son who is only 5 years old.

I wish I could help her more than just offer support but she moved from Melbourne to Queensland some months ago and there is not so much I can do anymore. Gone are the days I could just hop in the car and go visit.

Anyway, that is my lot for the day. I hope everyone is well and happy. Take care my lovely friends.