I'm a human YoYo

I go up and then come crashing down. One minute I am positive - and feeling great - at those times (which seem fleeting), I know deep in my heart that we are going to get pregnant soon. 5 minutes later, I cannot see a time when we might be blessed with a child at all. It doesn't help that my temp is all over the place, and that I am still spotting days after AF supposedly finished.

Sometimes I hate my body - anyone want to trade??? I will take any offers.