hump day

Yep - middle of the week. Work has been ultra busy and my mood has deteriated as my workload has increased. It's an exponentially increasing ratio.

plus I think my period is close to arriving. The mood is a sure sign, but I also got 2 lovely zits today on my chin (and I haven't touched chocolate or anything). I'm tired and I'm grumpy.

I found myself worrying today about whether to take clomid again if my period arrives before Monday when I go see my wonderful specialist again. (I can't remember what acronym I gave him LOL). Perhaps I will just call him Prof.Hope. He is the one I saw who gave me the 100mg dosage of clomid that got me tukka. Since then I have had um.. 3 cycles of 100mg clomid (I think) which have all done diddly squat (and I include this cycle in that figure).

So anyway, before I get sidetracked on Prof.Hope, let me say that I realised that I had already decided not to do clomid next cycle - I need a break from it. I feel so much better having decided that I tell you. I haven't told Hubbs yet.

Ok - so back to Prof.Hope. I want more from him. I want to not have the stress of babydancing on demand anymore. I want at the very least IUI. I want more help. I want anything he can give me.

I want a baby.

Hope everyone is well. I have been checking blogs when I get the chance. I was doing to check more tonight, but I am so tired that I am, instead, going to head off to bed for an early night.

Night everyone.