Monday, June 05, 2006

I got another miracle

Last Monday I went and saw my specialist and he gave me the miracle of more chances of conceiving via IVF should this cycle not work. I thought that was enough of a miracle - just that opportunity was more than I ever expected. I felt truly blessed.

So I just had to wait for my period to arrive, then I could get started with the pill and we would be on our way.

On Thursday we had Hubbs' grandmother's funeral, and I was so nervous about it going well, that I just felt ill about it.

On Friday I still felt ill, so at 17 days past ovulation, and with no period, I caved and tested with a Home pregnancy test.

To my surprise it was +. I looked at it twice. No need to squint,. Clearly visible at arms length. Came up in the time period and stayed nice and clear.

I rang Monash and asked for a blood test to confirm what I was seeing - they told me I couldn't get a blood test until Monday morning. I was so scared that what I was seeing was leftover booster HCG shot that I did 8 days prior to testing.
I waited. Saturday came and went - no period, and the nausea remained. Sunday morning I tested and again I got a positive test, and it was darker.

Monday came and I did the blood test.

The results were:

Progesterone: 26.6
HCG (the pregnancy hormone) : 346

I am definately pregnant.

Now the worry begins. I am absolutely terrified of losing this baby. It is almost a year (to the month) that I got pregnant with Tukka. I lost Tukka at 6.5 weeks.

At this stage with Tukka my HCG level was only 109, so I am feeling a little more confident about this pregnancy.

I will be 5 weeks exactly tomorrow. I am due on the 6th February.

Today I feel very very blessed.

I am so happy at being given another chance. But I am scared, and cautious of bonding with this pregnancy.

Please please please please let this baby grow safely. Let him\her breathe air, learn to walk, to talk, to play ball, to knit, to go to school, to have their own life, to die happy and old. I know it is a lot to ask, but please please let me just have this baby, for my very own.

OMG I'm pregnant.

Cautious, scared, but pregnant none the less.

23 Comments:

At 7:40 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Yay Bugsy
So very happy for you, are your dr's doing anything to support this preg, i would suggest Progesterone pessaries.
Anyways congrats.

 
At 8:09 pm, Blogger Net said...

Well, Well, Well. Last week I posted with me doing a Happy Dance for the IVF appointment, now this week I am doing a even bigger Happy Dance (and will continue doing one until the day you give birth) at your news. I just knew something was different about this cycle.

Now you get to use your money on Ob appointments not IVF.

Congrats to my very dear friend, I know you are nervous and scared but I am here for you in any capicity I can be.

Looking forward to many many many posts about your wonderful pregnancy.

 
At 8:19 pm, Blogger shell said...

Oh Bugsy Darling! Couldn't be happier for you and hubbs! YEEEEESSSS! finally!!!!!!! excuse me while i continue my happy dance in your honour (and bubs too)

 
At 9:05 pm, Blogger Vee said...

Bugsy, that is fabulous news !!
I am doing the happy dance with Net.
I hope the next 8 months are smooth sailing.
Congratulations.

 
At 9:58 pm, Anonymous Lucy said...

What an awesome surprise ... how exciting. Congratulations. I know it will probably be a while (if ever, we infertiles are a cynical lot) before you are less worried about things ... but still - try to enjoy it as much as you can in between the worrying. What was Hubbs' reaction?

 
At 10:12 pm, Blogger Ova Girl said...

Hooray Bugsy! Great news!

 
At 10:36 pm, Anonymous Sassy said...

I told you this was a good cycle. :) Congratulations. And I wish your new little family the very best.

 
At 11:50 pm, Blogger J said...

This is excellent news.
Congratulations!

 
At 1:15 am, Blogger PJ said...

What fantastic news! I am so happy for you Bugsy.

 
At 8:16 am, Anonymous baggage said...

Oh my gosh!! What good news. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

 
At 8:28 am, Blogger Mrs_Pants said...

I've been reading your blog for ages Bugsy, but think I've only commented once before.

This is fantastic news. I am sending your bucket loads of positive vibes for this pregnancy.

All the very best for the next 8 months.

 
At 10:28 am, Blogger vixanne wigg said...

Oh wow! I am really hoping for the best for you. I'm crossing my fingers and toes and hoping for continued good news.

 
At 1:48 pm, Blogger muser said...

This is fantastic news BUgsy! I'm very excited for you and am truly hoping it sticks. I agree wtih the person that suggested progesterone. Perhaps ask your specialist.

 
At 3:25 pm, Anonymous eleni said...

congrats i think you know how ecstatic i am for you HUGS

 
At 3:28 pm, Anonymous seepi said...

UNBELIEVABLE!

WHAT fantastic news. Now the waiting begins again. so, try to rest and relax, eat well, all that good stuff. And stay away from Echinacea and the raspberry tea and hot baths.
Well done to you!!!!

 
At 3:40 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Congratulations, I am just so happy for the both of you !.
May you have a magical pregnancy...
Enjoy Enjoy !!

Look after each one....

Stay safe little one xx

Danielle x

 
At 10:07 pm, Blogger Katt said...

Biggest hugs to you hun! I will enjoy reading the all the joys of your next 8mths!

Biggest love and hugs from us Walkers who are doing the happy dance

Katt

 
At 2:33 am, Blogger Mrs. T said...

Sending hugs your way! I'm so happy for you!

 
At 9:20 am, Blogger Tara said...

I knew this post was coming soon. I could feel it. I'm more than thrilled for you! I understand your worry. I wouldn't even take pictures of my belly until I was 28 weeks pregnant. CONGRATS!

 
At 12:17 pm, Blogger Dee said...

Sorry I'm late to the party with my congratulations. Hoping right along with you and the mr. for a happy and healthy 8+ more months.

May the good news keep coming :-)

 
At 2:51 pm, Blogger The Momma / MrsHUGS said...

Hi Bugsy...

I wondered how long before we saw the awesome news on your blog...
You know all of us up here are doing that happy dance as well and now sending you lots of healthy sticky vibes for the next 8 months or so...
Please think positive...

MrsHUGS

 
At 1:58 pm, Blogger Leeanne said...

Woo Hoo happy dance for you (gently). I am soo happy cause I know how badly you want this baby. Best wishes and big hugs.

 
At 10:22 pm, Blogger Em said...

Fantastic news Bugsy! What a miracle.

 

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