hello, can anyone see me here?

"Hello - Is anyone out there?"

(silence)

"Ohhh I am in this pit and I can't get out - anyone?"

"hello.."

"Oh someone is there - please help, I am in this pit of despair, and I can't find a way out."

"What on earth are you doing in that pit?"

"Well.... I kinda put myself here"

"You what? Are you an idiot of some sort?"

"Probably... We are trying to conceive a child, and it isn't as easy as we anticipated. Today I was supposed to go have a laparoscopy, a hysteroscopy and a hydratubation to see what is going on, but we delayed the surgery"

"But isn't this what you want? Some action towards a child?"

"Yes it is, but yesterday I was 12 days past ovulation and since I normally get my period 10 or 11 days past ovulation, I kinda thought there was a chance I might have been pregnant, but I did this blood test and it came back negative. But I was still unsure so we but the surgery off for a couple of weeks"

"Well that was sensible so why are you in that pit?"

"Well because my period arrived this morning... "

"oh, now I understand. You are in that pit of despair that we all get in when another cycle is over, when another chance is gone. How long you being doing this now?"

"2 years 1 month. It doesn't get any easier, every month hurts."

"I wish I could help, but Unfortunately the only person who can get you out of that pit is you. Your friends can help, but only to help you do it yourself."

"Yeah I know - thanks - I might just sit here a little longer. Maybe tomorrow things will seem better and I might find that ability to heave myself out of this hole. In the meantime, I might just sit back with a bottle of wine and some chocolate and try to forget that I want a child as much as I do. - Seeya"