Game over, I lose again

You can all stop crossing fingers, toes, eyes, and any other body part that you had crossed for me.

The result is a clear negative

Progesterone was 8.6
HCG was 3

I can't do another cycle now until the new year as the clinic is closed. Another imposed break. Another delay.

I'm at work but I am struggling to hold in the tears. Might have to feign a migraine and go home.

I am so upset I may even swear (I am not much of a swearer and when I do it, it sounds wrong).

Eyes welling up. Can't see. Must stop typing.

Before I go, please recross everything for Mari - she deserves this to work. Please let it be her turn.