Saturday, April 22, 2006

Stalemate

Hi guys,

Sorry for the lack of posting or commenting. I am over my download limit and it is so slow to use the internet at home that I hardly bother. It should be back up to full speed tomorrow I hope. I haven't had any time at work to blog either, just too busy.

I had my blood test on Wednesday and progesterone had only increased slightly to 24.9. Pretty dismal really. So I did another booster shot that night.

I have been in tears since Wednesday. It is pretty obvious that this cycle isn't going to work either and I just don't know what to do. My patient coordinator said that she thinks we have given this a good shot and that it is time to reconsider our options.

So I have booked into see my specialist on the 28th May which seems so very far away. She said he will probably tell us to stop doing this and go straight to IVF (do not pass go, do not collect $200). She said he also would most likely make me lose some weight before continuing down this track.

I feel like I can see my dream slipping away.

I am trying to be positive, but it is damn hard. How do you remain positive when you can see your dream slipping away from you and walls being put up in front of you?

Having said that, I am trying to focus on a saying someone told me - I think you will like it.

"Be realistic - expect a miracle".

4 Comments:

At 5:22 pm, Anonymous seepi said...

Bugsy IVF has a much higher success rate than IUI or clomid. I wish I had started IVF earlier instead of messing around with IUIs. IVF is a bit harder on your body than IUI, but not much. You have a higher dose of the injections - but still only one ijection daily. You feel a bit more bloated due to more follicles forming. and the worst bit is the egg pickup - although some ladies have no trouble, others find it as bad as the laparoscopy. Then each go of IVF has about a 50% success rate. And if you get frozen embryos, future cycles are actually easier than IUI - no drugs at all, just tracking you cycle, and putting them back at the right time. All the waiting and hoping is a killer - but you get all that with IUI as well. I hope your dr lets you go straight onto IVF. Good luck with it anyway, and good luck losing weight if that is what they want you to do.
seepi

 
At 2:29 pm, Anonymous MrsHUGS said...

Hi Bugsy...
Sorry I havent been posting on your blog of late but that doesnt mean I havent been thinking of you heaps...
Bring on IVF, will the weight loss be an issue, I have seen bigger ladies than you and I that have done IVF with success...
Hang in there...
Sending you positive vibes your way...

MrsHUGS

 
At 6:41 pm, Blogger Betty said...

Oh Bugsy, please don't loose sight of your dream. You can deal with each thing life throws at you...even though at times you feel you can't. Take a deep breath, find that hope, grit your teeth and keep on trying. IVF works for lots of people. Perhaps it's the change you need.I hope you feel brave and determined soon. I certainly know how you feel having knocked down obstacle after obstacle myself. One week you can be feeling completley useless and then a few days later that steely determination kicks in. Know that there are many of us out here in blogland rooting for you (well we are rooting for ourselves too!!)

 
At 7:10 pm, Blogger Thalia said...

Betty - the others are right. IUI is close to a waste of time - its success rate is only 1-2% over the success rate of trying on your own each month (depending on what your barrier to fertility is). IVF will increase that dramatically, and it really really isn't that bad. I know this is disappointing, but dont' give up yet.

 

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