Keeping busy

I just wanted you all to know that I am okay.

The bleeding slowed yesterday to almost a stop and with it the pain went too. Hormones are going crazy and have expressed themselves with headaches as well as the tears which continue to fall. I have cried so much my glands under my ears have swollen up and are really hurting me.

I decided yesterday the only way to slow the tears was to keep myself busy. After hubbs helped me shower, I set to keeping so busy that I didn't think about losing this baby so much.

I cleaned the kitchen thoroughly, tidied up the lounge, cooked, did more cleaning, did the washing, played with the dogs and when hubbs finally convinced me to stop and rest (he followed me all day trying to get me to slow down), we watched movies, while I knitted Hubb's jumper and did puzzle books. I cannot tell you what movies we watched. I have no recollection of them.

Mum in law also visited which was nice. She soon stopped talking about the baby and what a shame it was to lose it, when she saw my silent tears that were running down my face. She didn't stay long.

My brother also turned up. The first time in 4 years he has visited. He said he didn't know what to say, so he just came over. It was very sweet of him and he gave me a couple of hugs which was nice. Haven't had a hug from him in many years.

Hubbs told me to dress nicely today as he is going to take me out somewhere - probably a ploy to take my mind off things and stop me from running around this house all day, but it is very sweet of him anyway. I just hope it isn't like last time we miscarried when he took me out and I cried and women were giving him real greasers because they all thought he had done something to upset me. Poor Hubbs.

I hope you are all doing well. I have tried to follow up on some blogs. Hopefully I will get to them all soon. Take care all.