So much caution

I went to the doctors. She was a little weird. I have known this GP for several years, and she has been with me through all the years of infertility, both the miscarriages, and all our efforts at conceiving.

Firstly she has given my an inhaler which she says is safe for pregnancy, for me to use, in lieu of antibiotics. She said if it gets worse I may have to have antibiotics, but to try this first - that was okay.

Then she asked me who knows about the pregnancy? She said that we probably shouldn't tell anyone until after 20 weeks! She said that something might happen. I asked her why she would think that. I mean she has seen the scan report, so what would make her think something might go wrong. Her answer :"ohhh probably nothing will go wrong, but after trying so long, you would want to be sure things were okay". Hmmmm Can't say I really like that answer though.

I left there not feeling as confident about this pregnancy as I have been, and for someone as anxious as I am, I hardly think that is a good thing.

So I am trying to tell myself that all these people are being cautious and trying to get us to be cautious too, and I should just focus on the fact that right now I have a baby inside me that is, for all I know, doing really well. I have to prove all these people wrong - I can do this. I can have a healthy baby. I can. And I will.