14 week Ob appointment.

Thanks guys - Well we didn't get the cradle. They had sold out - Oh well, plenty of time.

We had another OB appointment today - all is going really well. We did a mini scan in her room (no picture because her equipment isn't that good) and for a second I was terrified as bubs was laying very very still. Then I saw the heartbeat and I felt a lot better.

Wriggles (hubs decided Wriggles rather than wiggles (go figure)) was laying on his/her back with his/her thumb well and truly in his/her mouth. But Wriggles was so still. Doc knew what I am like and said "you won't be really happy until you see movement will you?" then she nudged my belly a little and woke Wriggles up and he/she had a little tantrum and waved arms madly about. I think he/she must take after Hubbs - I definately think so now that I have seen that tantrum. What am I in for?

Hubbs was with me and he was sooo excited. We both gazed upon this amazing little person that was made out of both of us. He was the first one to spot the thumb sucking and he laughed when he saw the tantrum. We both had big smiles and tears when we were leaving.

Doc is so lovely. I asked her whether we had a reasonable chance now that we have reached this far and she said "I wouldn't say reasonable, I would say fantastic!". hehe.

When we made another appointment she said "...in another month? Will you be able to cope waiting that long?" - I know she would see me in a heartbeat if I was uncertain and needed reassurrance. I am sooooo very glad we chose her.

On the weekend I went to a kitchen tea and got handed a 4 month old baby girl. She was adorable but I felt entirely lost. I had no idea what to do with this wriggling bundle I had been handed. It freaked me out. How on earth am I going to cope with a baby?

For so long I have lived with the fear I would never have a baby. Now it appears I just might have one and my fear has changed to "Am I going to be a good mother?" I am a bit scared about whether I am going to be able to cope.

Time will tell I guess - hope you are ready to answer all my questions. lol I am sure there will be a lot of them.

ok - better go finish the pantry - I am cleaning it out and onto the last shelf. Bye for now.

Lesley - you are a star hun - thank you so much for returning from the abyss.